黃韻安

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家計劃的最初是關於記憶碎片的撿拾，在這個4-1的小家庭，我試圖找回那些漂浮在我們周圍、我們共同遺忘的那些塵埃碎屑。2023年中，我們逐漸在日常中找到某種相處的平衡．家在這個時間點是平靜且隱隱閃現希望，我感覺這就是時候，我開啟了家計劃。
The home project was originally about picking up memory fragments. In this small family of 4-1, I tried to retrieve the dust floating around us that we had forgotten together. In mid-2023, we gradually found a certain balance in getting along with each other in our daily lives. Home at this point was peaceful and had a faint glimmer of hope. I felt like this was the time to start the Home Project.

以國光路31巷21號7樓這個房子作為空間場域，承接了我們的故事，如同一部三幕劇，起於〈家初〉、承轉於〈母後〉、終於〈復返〉
Used as a spatial field, the house on the 7th floor of No. 21, Lane 31, Guoguang road inherit our story. It is like a three-act play, starting from the "Beginning of the family", inherited from the "Days after", and finally "Return"

2005年母親節前，媽媽從七八樓樓梯間墜落，改變她周身許多人的生命。在家計劃中，這場事件為第一幕劃下終止。
Before Mother's Day in 2005, my mother fell from the stairwell window between the seventh and eighth floor, changing the lives of many people around her. In The Home Project , this incident brings closure to the first act.

〈家初〉落幕，〈母後〉持續了二十年。
"The Beginning of the Family" ended, and "Days after" lasted for twenty years.

真相是不可求的，留下的人在濃霧中掙扎憤恨惶惑，終究還是繼續前行。兩個女兒、一個父親，前行的路走了二十年。沒有破冰、互訴什麼衷腸，就是各自努力湊合著過日子，把各自不願言說的情緒深深埋進各自心裡。
The truth cannot be sought and those people left behind struggled in the thick fog, resentful and confused, and finally moved on. Two daughters and a father been on the same road for twenty years. No ice-breaking or heart-to-heart talk with each other, they just tried to make do with each other's lives, burying the emotions they didn't want to express deeply in their hearts.

2023年夏天，我啟動《家計畫》，開始安排一系列訪談、三人各自的書寫、數十小時的口述錄音檔。在家裡全面翻新裝潢之前，我辦了兩場三個人的工作坊，行走在現在與過去，我們往而又復，復而又返。二十年後，這是家的第三幕——〈復返〉——
In the summer of 2023, I launched the "Project:Home" and began to arrange series of interviews, writings, and dozens of hours of dictation recordings. During the time we decided to renovated our home, I also held two workshops with my dad and my sister. Walked between the present and the past, and went back and forth. Twenty years later, this is the third act of home - "Return" -

Ma'ohi人說：「過去在前面，因為你看得到；未來在後面，因為你看不到。」於是我們一邊直面著過去，一邊往未來行去
The Ma'ohi people say, "The past is in front because you can see it; the future is in the back because you can't see it." So we face the past while walking toward the future.

我在意的不只是那些記憶碎片也不只是漫長歲月中各自壓抑不為人說的種種情緒，還有我們各自在這不算短的歲月中，為了避開不願看見、或追尋欲想起來的那些記憶碎片，在真實與想像的灰色地帶之間，駐足、踱步、圈繞的一道道足跡。
What I care about is not only the memory fragments nor the various emotions that we have suppressed in almost twenty years, but also the paths that each of us, in order to avoid things we don’t want to see or pursue those things that we want to think about. Fragments of memory, footprints of stopping, pacing, and circling in the gray area between reality and imagination.

家計劃的核心，是關於三雙截然不同的眼睛看出去的世界、以及向後回身的三十年如一日的家。
The core of the home project is about the world seen by three completely different pairs of eyes and the home that has been the same for thirty years looking back.